Maybe you can help me about the Lord's prayer. Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. If there isn't a new system, then what does that mean? I have so many doubts about the society but that one still stumps me.
When I left (at age 19), I left fully imprinted with black and white thinking. Any situation could be viewed only one way: all right or all wrong (JW mentality). Falling into this mindset is the most common way I regress. But deep down, I know that this mindset is ALL WRONG (tee hee...)
This part of the prayer does not have to mean that all the Earth is doing God's will, or that God intends his will to be demonstrated in the same identical way in everyone.
One single person doing God's will is the fulfillment of this prayer. Which means this prayer is answered billions of times a day, whenever anyone says a little prayer or blessing, does something kind, stands up for injustice, gives a handful of change to a homeless person, comforts a crying child, appreciates the beauty of nature, you catch my drift? You can view this part of the prayer as God's assignment to you to do holy things right now, here on Earth (just like they do heaven...)
When Jesus "gave" this prayer, he was not giving any new prayer. This was the way the Jews prayed for ages. He is outlining the structure: Honor God, honor God's presence, ask for stuff (food, healing, blessings, a new car), ask for redemption and forgiveness, ask to be protected, It wasn't the be all end all prayer of promise of a new system.
(As an aside-I try to remember if the prayers at meetings and assemblies followed a similar structure, and I can't-but I think they sorta did. I do remember, though is that we were told to constantly pray, but were never really taught how to have a personal prayer practice....)
Wifey-I encourage you to begin enjoying the shades of grey as you journey beyond the WTBTS. It is a never ending reminder of the freedom thought you now have.
Take care, Shoshana